a big exhale

YYYEAAHHHH!!!!

school holidays! i can do whatever i wan. well its kinda sad coz after this.. sec 4.. O LEVELS!!! then after that we leaving the school oredi... huhu.. sob sob... WAAAHAAAHAHHAHAHA... [crying]

today farewell assembly for mr harphal. did the emcee. I WAS NOT NERVOUS! ITS THE BLOODY MIC VERY SOFT! cock up sia! but it's such a sad ocasion... everyone crying leh... argh... so sad... then i hug mr singh! I HUGGED MR HARPHAL SINGH! WOAH! but still very sad. then there lots of gifts for him. and i helped him keep those gifts in his car.. he went off in the middle of the whole thing coz he cannot bear it as he also wana cry... so sad right.. haiz..

then sea awards [RECIEVED BRONZE]... went very early.. mdm hasna and ms yee came later. ms yee so glam sia... well all of the teachers were by the way... the show was a boom men! big response from the audience.. they were laughing all the way... but i missed a couple of steps. damn.. lots o recognitions afterwards.. i sat with ms yee during dinner... sad and happy.. we laughed like siao lor. i will cherish that moment coz... she is leaving. sob. i damn sad.. i'll miss her. haiz. we shared food anf all that. the band was good.. except for a couple of mistakes by azree it was superb. i introduced my parents to mr singh, ms yee, mdm hasna, mr khoo, and mr chong. after that.. took alot of pictures and hugged and shook hands with teachers. went home in bus abd set with yuan long... getting emo and all that. mwahaha.. then droped to sch and took bus home...

the bus was so long that i tot last shift finish oredi. last min i decided to walk when the bus came... then HOME SWEET HOME! so tired!!!

farewell assembly / sea

wow... damn the hectic
i feel i could disect myself into half
im the emcee for farewell assembly [so not up to standard]
im vigorously involved in all the deco. due to my asthetic talents [alamak] - think might as well make me in charge... my boss [ibro] actually promote me to internal secretary.. but i lost my bottle so he degrade me again...
im helping the guest of honour for sea to give the presentation
im recieving an award
im performing for drama
and teachers like ms yee and mr santok keep on asking me to do stuff for them. [dun get me wrong... im most willing]
haiz..
but im happy doing all these stuff...

twinkle

my mom...
she lies!
she actually lies!
i mean lie... not telling the truth
so bad!
its about this popcorn
i saw it
and i tot she was hiding the popcorn from me
so i asked her for a popcorn
she said dun have!
and i told her to buy.
the next day i asked her again
then she say still dun have.
kept on asking until she gave up
and gave me the pop corn
so i asked how she got it
i tot dun have
then she say that she bought jus now.
can you believe it?
she lied
then she lied again to cover her lies
and she told me she does not lie
human beings
lucki im from mars

rose

the imaginary rose

im holding to it again

i did not even see it coming

it just crashed into me like a bus

with that one smile

BOOM

im bleeding

making my fingers throb in pain

thick chunky chain is twined

unable to let go

the rose that is blood red

that you cannot overlook it

just trying an anesthetic

no matter how hard you try to ignore

the bright agony is still there

as bright as the red spots on the cheeks

when its too hot

yet it is just a paper rose

imaginary

like the wind

i cant see

but it stings my eyes

and am defenseless againts it

nobody else sees or feels it

so nobody can symphatize

it's in me

it resides beyond the subconcious

i ask what type of rose is it

but it refuses to be named

it wont change anything

it wont make me happier

it wont inrease my grades

by a mark

well said

curiosity sometimes unsatisfied

wont no where the wound is

been trying to snub

until something touches it

(you're leaving)

or when it hurts to much

the i spot the torns pricking

try to take it out

but hurts even more

argh... pain

when will you end

i know someday it'll cease

but for now

that someday is so far away

josh sanata - hindi ko kaya

HINDI KO KAYA
Josh Santana

Magmula ng magkalayo,
Araw gabi nalulungkot
Di matanggap ng damdamin,
Na ikaw ay hindi na akin.

Pa'no ang gagawin ko,
Nasana'y na sa piling mo
Sana'y hindi tayo nagkalayo,
Sana'y naririnig mo.

Hindi ko kaya ang limutin kita,
Masdan mo lumuluha ang aking mga mata
Pilitin ko man ako'y nasasaktan,
Ang katotohanan ay mahal parin kita

Nasan kaman sana'y dinggin,
Puso ko ay muling mahalin
Ang nagdaan muling balikan,
Muling buhayin ang pag-mamahalan

EXAMS ARE FINISH!!!!

WWWAAAAHHHH!!!! NEVER BEEN SO HAAPY IN MYY LIFEE!!! EXAMS ARE SO STRESSLESS!!! TWO MORE DAYS TOO GOOO!!!!

speed of time

speed of time



time is so slow when you're waiting
he trudges when you do nothing
how many meters per hour
slower than a blooming flower

he hitches slowly when at grief
tediously ticking past each tears
each seconds multiply the adversities
as days ferments into years

he saunters when you're exhilarated
hoping and prancing around naked
preoccupied, you check the time at last
oh my, he had gone so fast

he creeps at you when you fear
he sprints like light when you're afraid
boosts your senility the more worry
no last resort, it's too late

but time has a weakness too
though many dont have a clue
time stops when you're in love
as time confronts with cupid's mob

i am so sad nobody ever visits my blog...
im so invinsible

GOOD LUCK FOR EXAMS!!!!

THE WATERS

i hate the sea
its darkness so vast
it contents unknown
a trap of eternity
no escape
aN immense monster
that gobbles you like a mustard seed
you're helpless in fighting
it the more you fight, the more you lose
sinking in the forever deep abyss
unable to gulp for air
the air that is non-existent
it spells death
claiming lives of the innocent
mercilessly
in the humongous arena of nadir
only foes exist
everywhere you look not a light is present
it is Old Nick's theatre
engulfing most of the earth
in its monopoly we are slaves
i hate the sea